IBAB PUNYA ORANG

Lepas sebatang, sebatang kau hisap. Kurang asam betul. Bukan main orang dok cakap nak merokok pegi luar, kau bukan nak dengar. Buat tak tau ade la. Siot. Orang lain boleh je dengar. One word for you, BODOH!

Merokok bahaya kau tau? Kau nak anak bini kau nanti mati awal, sama macam kau? Bengap.

Kau memang bengap.

MINTA ITU INI

Adakalanya ALLAH tak tunaikan apa yang kita minta sebab DIA tahu kalau kita ada benda tu, kemungkinan hanya akan membawa keburukan.

Dan adakalanya, ALLAH tangguhkan dulu apa yang kita minta sebab DIA nak tengok kita sabar atau tak.

Dan adakalanya, DIA ambil sesuatu yang kita sayang sebab DIA nak gantikan dengan sesuatu yang lebih baik.

MARAH

Kau memang tak ada common-sense kan? Seriously, kau ingat aku ni robot? Suka hati kau je. Sebelum ni kau suruh buat apa, aku buat, aku ikut je. Ni dah melampau. Aku bukan nak merungut, tapi aku memang tak setuju ngan apa yang kau buat ni. Aku dah sebut perkataan yang tak patut hari ni. Semua sebab kau. Aku rasa macam nak menangis sangat, sebab aku nangis bila aku marah. Aku marah kat kau. Tapi aku tak boleh nangis, tak professional kan? Dah la, aku dah tak ada mood nak mengajar hari ni. Jangan tunjuk muka kau depan aku.

BUNGA HATIKU

Antara segala pujaan hatiku

Kau kembang bunga hatiku kelana lara,

Dalam terang dalam gelap kau tetap bercahaya

Menyinari jiwaku bergelora tak kenal diam.

P/S: It's for you.

SEMINGGU

Dah tukar holiday-mode. Macam mana nak mengajar? *sigh*

KELUH-MENGELUH

Aah kan, kena buat lesson plan, kertas ujian. Seminggu je lagi sebelum cuti.

*sigh*

JATUH

Aku jatuh,

Aku bangun semula.

Senang kan?

Kenapa kau tidak begitu?

EMPAT-PULUH

P/S: Happy 40th!

TEACHER

Sometimes just a piece of handwritten card can make your day too.

-Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers out there-

DIA AYAH SAYA

Dear Dad,

Sometimes I wish I can talk to you. It's frustrating when I feel like talking to you and you won't be able to hear me. So here I am, sitting alone in my room and crying like a baby, wanting you back, alive. I know you're somewhere far away, there's nothing I can do to bring you back. I'm sorry for holding grudge against you back then. It's funny when I get to know that I actually love you after you're gone. I should've love you sooner. So I won't feel this painful regret when I'm not able to do that before. Everytime I write about you, it's all about agonies. Sorry that I have nothing nice to say about you, cause there really is nothing. But one thing you should know, wherever you are now, is that I love you.

At night when the stars light up my room

I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon.

Try to get to you

In hopes you're on the other side

Talking to me too.

Or am I a fool who sits alone

Talking to the moon?

In memories of late Sarkawi Bin Mohamad (1952-2004) Al-Fatihah.

P/S: Thanks for sharing your Dad with me.

DIA BUAT SAYA SENYUM

Okay, tadi ada orang buat saya senyum. Bukan orang, tapi budak. Seriously, he's making me smile from this morning until now. Tadi buat kelas kat bilik SALC. Ingat nak habiskan literature tu, sebab cerita tu masuk exam bulan 6 nanti. So tadi saya buatkan la powerpoint presentation untuk diorang. 10.40, diorang masuk kelas. Lepas semua dah senyap, saya cakap la, 'Okay, cooperate with me, the sooner we get this done, I'll let you watch any videos I have in my laptop here.' And they were like, 'Okay okay teacher(dalam masa yang sama ulang balik apa yang saya cakap dalam bahasa melanau kat kawan-kawan yang tak faham).' So I started teaching, showing them the slides, explaining to them, giving them examples and so on(sambil kipas-kipas diri sendiri, pastu lap muka ngan tisu, panas sangat). After they're done with copying the notes, I divided them into groups, then I assigned them with group works. Nak dijadikan cerita ni tadi, ada seorang budak ni, anak cikgu kat sekolah ni. Dia selalunya senyap, tak banyak cakap, selalu buat kerja. Tapi kadang-kadang dia main gak dalam kelas. Tadi tak tau kenapa, dia tiba-tiba nak mainkan saya lak hari ni tadi. Try putting your fingers at the edge of both your eyes, and pull your fingers to the side. Which made his eyes become 'sepet'. Mulanya saya ingat dia buat kat kawan dia yang lain, saya buat tak tau je la. Then sekali lagi saya tengok dia, dia still buat benda yang sama. Okay, he's doing it to me. Seriously, I almost burst with laughs. Tapi as their teacher, saya control comel.haha Saya cuma mampu cakap, 'You, just wait, I'll deal with you later.' Dia senyum, saya geram gak masa tu. Kawan-kawan dia yang lain tak tau apa yang dia buat, tanya dia apa yang dia dah buat. Dia cuma senyum. He's unexpectedly doing something unexpected. Tak expect langsung dia nak buat macam tu kat saya. Lepas saya habis bagi kerja, ada la lebih kurang 15 minit lagi nak habis masa. Saya tunjuk la video kat diorang. Lepas habis tengok video, diorang balik la kelas. Budak tu dah lari awal-awal keluar kelas. Tak nak dengar saya membebel la tu. Anyways, he kind of made my day. Thanks to him, saya senyum sepanjang hari.

P/S: Jangan jealous tau, ni budak Form 2 je. ^_^

DIA KAWAN BAIK SAYA

Sometimes words like 'bye dugong' really made your day, in a good way of course. It's weird how you won't get irritated with these kind of words.haha Well, it's my bestfriend, I really don't care what she says, doesn't matter, because on top of that, I know she loves me. *smile*

P/S: 'Dia' jealous? Sayang, it's Ijring la, takkan nak jealous jugak? *senyum*

MAK

"Mak, selamat hari ibu. I love you! :)" -Jannah-

"You are the second one. THANK YOU" -Mak-

Today's Mother's Day. I just wanted to wish Happy Mother's Day to all supermums out there.

Mak, I know I've been not-so-nice. I love you.

P/S: Dah wish kat Ummi tadi. <3

ADDICTION

Today's post is especially dedicated to my other half(eventhough he's busy working on weekend *tarik muka*). It's been 1207 days since we met. Bunyi macam banyak kan, saja kira guna hari, biar nampak banyak sikit. *senyum* You know I love you and I will always do.

They say in this world

Nothing lasts forever

But I don't believe that's true

Cause the way that I feel

When we're together

I know that's the way

I'll always feel for you

From now until forever

That's how long I'll be true

I'll make you this vow

And promise you now

Until forever

I'll never stop loving you

There'll come a day

When the world stops turning

And stars will fall from the sky

But this feeling will last

When the sun stops burning

All I want to do is love you

Till the end of time

It's gonna take more than a lifetime

To give you all the love

All the love i feel for you

P/S: I keep having crushes on you. You're addictive.

FEUSTIEN OWEN

Ada satu kelas, 1B, saya ajar English. Okay, ada seorang student, comel gila. Nama dia Feustien Owen. Serious dia sangat comel. Comel gila okay! Feustien ni, saiz dia sangatlah kecil kalau dibandingkan dengan semua pelajar dalam kelas itu, kalau banding dengan seluruh pelajar tingkatan satu pun dia yang paling kecil. Dia kecil, kulit cerah, suara pun comel je. Seriously, if I was in that class, I would fall for this boy. Gatai! Rasa macam nak tangkap gambar dia, then upload kat sini. Tadi kelas sebelum rehat. Dengar je bunyi loceng, budak-budak dah panas punggung. Tak nak bersesak di kantin kata mereka. This boy will always be the one yang akan keluar paling awal dari kelas. He will always walk in front of me. Serious budak ni comel sangat. Tadi tengok dia lari, comelnya la haihhhh. Dah la badan dia kecik. Comel comel comel! Okay, enough about him, karang ada orang jeles. *senyum nakal*

Here's a poem that I really like. I Wonder. I taught this in class, but not all of these lines are in the book. Read, understand, reflect. Happy weekend!

I wonder why the grass is green?

And why to each other we’re often mean?

Who taught us how to curse and hate?

And lead us to betray our faith?

Why can’t we learn to live and love?

And give all praises to Him above.

Why must we strive to put others down?

Why not wear a smile instead of a frown.

Must we forever devise new ways?

To hurt each other instead of praise?

For aren’t we all the same in His sight.

Don’t we all rise in the morning and sleep at night?

For who amongst us has not shed a tear,

Or hurt by another who never seemed to care.

And which of us has not done the same,

To hurt another or caused some shame.

When shall we learn to let go off the past,

And live each day like it’s our very last?

Which will you be, a foe or a friend?

Would you still hate today, if this was your end?

Don’t we yet know that it clouds our fate,

When we ignore love and foster hate.

When hate fills your heart, it makes you blue,

For the person most hurt will always be you.

Lets rise each morning, smile and say,

“Thank you God, for yet another day.”

“Thanks for your love and tender care."

"And give me more love in my heart to share."

P/S: Mentang-mentang saya dah turun kerja hari ni, tanya pun tidak saya sihat ke tak. Serious rasa macam nak merajuk. *mulut muncung*

CUTI SAKIT

Saya tidak sihat. Doktor bagi cuti dua hari. Rasanya sudah terbiasa bekerja, sampaikan seharian di rumah rasa sangat bosan. Mahu kemas rumah, tapi badan tak larat. Tiba-tiba rasa sedih, sebab sendirian begini ketika sakit. Mahu mak, mahu 'dia'. Tadi mulanya memang tidak mahu beritahu mak, tapi mak dah terlebih dahulu telefon, dengar suara saya lain, dia tanya kenapa. Mak suruh balik. Tapi saya mahu turun kerja esok. Banyak lagi kerja yang perlu diselesaikan. Banyak sangat. Hari Sabtu nanti ada sekolah ganti. Ada program gotong-royong perdana. Okay, berbalik pada sakit tadi. Saya sangat payah makan ubat. Everyone is aware of that. Bagi saya, saya lebih suka sembuh naturally. Banyak la naturally. Mana tak sakit lama-lama. Sebab tu bila saya sakit, akan ada beberapa orang yang dari masa ke semasa akan ingatkan saya untuk makan ubat. Mak, 'dia'. Tak habis-habis telefon. Asal semua orang tahu, saya makan ubat bila saya rasa saya sudah sakit teruk. Macam sekarang, tadi saya makan ubat. Maknanya saya rasa saya sudah sakit teruk. Demam dah rasa makin kurang. Esok boleh la turun kerja.

P/S: Jangan la buat saya geram waktu saya sakit. Potong rambut karang.

DIA SUKA CAKAP BELAKANG

Saya cuba untuk faham, kenapa sesetengah orang suka mengata orang lain. Ada faedah kah? Saya sudah puas mendengar orang kata-mengata. Bagi saya, saya tidak susah, katalah apa saja, saya tidak ambil pusing. Tapi saya percaya pada karma. What goes around comes back around. Kepada orang yang tidak jenuh mengata orang lain, sudah-sudah lah tu. Tak ada gunanya.

P/S: Mana ucapan selamat pagi saya? *tarik muka - masam*

ARSENAL

Arsenal menang lawan Manchester United. Gembirakah saya? *senyum* Saya ingat lagi, ketika masih belajar di universiti, sanggup keluar dari bilik waktu malam semata-mata kerana ingin menyaksikan perlawanan yang sama, Arsenal lawan Manchester United. Waktu itu saya masih nakal, menonton bersama orang lain. Tidak pasti sama ada benar-benar menonton ataupun terleka dengan bau yang menenangkan(untuk ketika itu). Itu kisah lama, I moved on. Kadang-kadang bila kita ingat balik, pasti kenangan itu kelihatan agak lawak. Tapi tak kisah, pengalaman mengajar kita untuk jadi dewasa. Sudah dewasakah saya? Mungkin. Ibu pernah cakap, 'Kau dah matang sekarang.' Time passed, people changed. Yes, people change over time.

P/S: I see how much you've changed. Jom kahwin? *senyum*